someone is having fun in Paris.
I just feel like anything that happens all at once is just as likely to unhappen all at once, just like once you think a thought it's extremely hard to unthink it.
okay.
Sunday 14 December 2014
14/12/2014
I just feel like anything that happens all at once is just as likely to unhappen all at once, just like once you think a thought it's extremely hard to unthink it.
okay.
Saturday 13 December 2014
13/12/2014
Realising my bag's disappearance as soon as I stepped out from the tube, I was completely clueless.
shocked and panicked.
He took me back to Liverpool Street in search of my bag even knowing chances were rare. Basically he settled everything for me, from lodging a police report to getting me a new SIM card and setting up his spare phone for me to use. Getting me cash to make sure I will have enough to spend before my replacement card arrives. For holding me tight at the right moment;
I was really really upset.
quite huge loss ): *okay my own fault*
"It feels like I've lost a lot of things I really really like in one week itself." I told him.
"Accidentally broke my dream-catcher."
"Compelled to return my most favourite Timberland boots and get refunded because it's faulty and there was LITERALLY none left for that particular model with my size in all London stores."
then now I lost my new bag (which I just bought it at Newcastle with SZ!) with my phone (okay my Nokia phone doesn't matter) my cards and my room key (with the key chain I bought at Tynemouth Sunday Market omg I still couldn't believe myself).
"You know, I lost so many good stuff within one week itself." I told him, miserably upset.
“还好啦，没关系啦，旧的不去新的不来；还好你没把你的新男朋友弄丢。”
“呵呵杨语涵小朋友你找对男朋友了吧。”
OH AND I LOST MY FAVOURITE LOLLIA HAND CREAM AS WELL.
SO UPSET EVEN THOUGH THERE'S ONLY LITTLE LEFT IN THE TUBE.
but guess what.
A NEW TUBE OF LOLLIA HAND CREAM IN MY FACE WHEN WE GOT HOME.
Thank you :))
well
happy Christmas hols (: xx
gonna start studying now.
yep.
then Iceland adventure on 17th :))
start studyin'
yes
better start now.
still, upset with the thought of it
shocked and panicked.
He took me back to Liverpool Street in search of my bag even knowing chances were rare. Basically he settled everything for me, from lodging a police report to getting me a new SIM card and setting up his spare phone for me to use. Getting me cash to make sure I will have enough to spend before my replacement card arrives. For holding me tight at the right moment;
I was really really upset.
quite huge loss ): *okay my own fault*
"It feels like I've lost a lot of things I really really like in one week itself." I told him.
"Accidentally broke my dream-catcher."
"Compelled to return my most favourite Timberland boots and get refunded because it's faulty and there was LITERALLY none left for that particular model with my size in all London stores."
then now I lost my new bag (which I just bought it at Newcastle with SZ!) with my phone (okay my Nokia phone doesn't matter) my cards and my room key (with the key chain I bought at Tynemouth Sunday Market omg I still couldn't believe myself).
"You know, I lost so many good stuff within one week itself." I told him, miserably upset.
“还好啦，没关系啦，旧的不去新的不来；还好你没把你的新男朋友弄丢。”
“呵呵杨语涵小朋友你找对男朋友了吧。”
OH AND I LOST MY FAVOURITE LOLLIA HAND CREAM AS WELL.
SO UPSET EVEN THOUGH THERE'S ONLY LITTLE LEFT IN THE TUBE.
but guess what.
A NEW TUBE OF LOLLIA HAND CREAM IN MY FACE WHEN WE GOT HOME.
Thank you :))
well
happy Christmas hols (: xx
gonna start studying now.
yep.
then Iceland adventure on 17th :))
start studyin'
yes
better start now.
still, upset with the thought of it
Friday 12 December 2014
12/12/2014
end of Michaelmas Term 2014
No tears for the life that you've led
You've had angels in your head
Did you hear them singing in the end
Extremely loud and incredibly close;
my angels
all my angels
and you.
that's one thing I regret the most, that I was the one who hurt you indirectly
and at the end of the day I found out about it from someone else
what have I done to you
what have I done to deserve you
I feel so blessed and so guilty at the same time you have no idea
now that I don't even know how to talk to you cause the thought of you will make me burst into tears without you saying anything.
what have I done to deserve you.
Wednesday 10 December 2014
10/12/2014
feeling the blues about it
but I'm living my best life each and every day
"I don't understand why do you cry every time when you're drunk."
That was the last thing I remember.
He sighed, "I'm really worried about you, you know." He sighed so heavily.
then I fell asleep on his lap
hearing occasional conversation between him and the driver.
It was raining outside I remember
water droplets on the window panes which made me feel so safe and comfortable.
away from the freezing coldness which chilled me to the bones while waiting for people to come down.
that's all I need.
for a moment I thought I couldn't be any luckier.
to have met Leslie in the first place and then him
"So now you know I'm a deeply unhappy person from inside."
I don't understand myself either.
that I could be so positive and so negative about my life happenings.
I'm often confused.
overthinking kills. well who doesn't know
"Promise me stop overthinking okay. At least try not to."
how I wish I could freeze that moment forever
you know
I was once told
forever is made up of nows.
but I'm living my best life each and every day
"I don't understand why do you cry every time when you're drunk."
That was the last thing I remember.
He sighed, "I'm really worried about you, you know." He sighed so heavily.
then I fell asleep on his lap
hearing occasional conversation between him and the driver.
It was raining outside I remember
water droplets on the window panes which made me feel so safe and comfortable.
away from the freezing coldness which chilled me to the bones while waiting for people to come down.
that's all I need.
for a moment I thought I couldn't be any luckier.
to have met Leslie in the first place and then him
"So now you know I'm a deeply unhappy person from inside."
I don't understand myself either.
that I could be so positive and so negative about my life happenings.
I'm often confused.
"Promise me stop overthinking okay. At least try not to."
how I wish I could freeze that moment forever
you know
I was once told
forever is made up of nows.
ilykl
Sunday 7 December 2014
7/12/2014
no doubt.
after finding out the truth of what I simply assumed to be pure coincidence
it's a really nice feeling, to be adored by the person you thought he'll never be yours.
it's a really nice feeling.
Because you simply cannot draw things out forever.
Because forever is a really really powerful, destructive word.
I still can't trust promises;
but
no doubt (:
after finding out the truth of what I simply assumed to be pure coincidence
it's a really nice feeling, to be adored by the person you thought he'll never be yours.
it's a really nice feeling.
Because you simply cannot draw things out forever.
Because forever is a really really powerful, destructive word.
I still can't trust promises;
but
no doubt (:
Friday 5 December 2014
5/12/2014
‘你知道吗他追到你后开心得请了姜然，明亮和Will他们吃饭’
仿佛是昨天的事情却明明已经过了两个星期；
会开始害怕时间过得特别快
大学的第一个学期就这样过去了
一日一日拼凑成的青春很快也会过去
还是会提醒自己，除了自己并没有完全值得信赖的东西
开始倚靠就会失去自己双腿站立的能力，当被倚靠的人离开就会摔倒
ps: loving Sunday markets and Christmas markets!
especially those stalls selling beautifully handmade crafts;
Going to Camden tomorrow.
Christmas market (more churros**), and gonna watch Paddington :))
Feels like I've been visiting cinemas quite frequently from Mockingjay to Interstellar to Paddington;
Gonna be a long while until I see him again after next week.
cause he'll be going to few European countries and I'll be going to Iceland with sz;
when he's back in London I'll be leaving the next day to Belgium with Roy Tabson and Yong ):
‘不要着急，最好的总会在最不经意的时候出现。’
Thursday 4 December 2014
4/12/2014
when you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside.
can't believe what I texted Yoon last night when I checked my whatsapp this morning;
my one and only ahjusshi;
"Don't drink too much okay I'm otw to work now."
For a moment I thought, I'm not going to see that ahjusshi again in real life.
remembering those days sitting between him and Tabson during Physics lessons and being troublemakers.
"People behind there!" Mr Ang would yell at the 3 of us. "Helllooooo.."
it goes on;
Do you think crying with tears is really crying?
I know it won’t change a thing, no matter how much I beg;
'I could die a happy man I'm sure.'
reminding myself each and every day
I'm yours;
I'm yours.
I died a little bit inside.
can't believe what I texted Yoon last night when I checked my whatsapp this morning;
my one and only ahjusshi;
"Don't drink too much okay I'm otw to work now."
For a moment I thought, I'm not going to see that ahjusshi again in real life.
remembering those days sitting between him and Tabson during Physics lessons and being troublemakers.
"People behind there!" Mr Ang would yell at the 3 of us. "Helllooooo.."
it goes on;
Do you think crying with tears is really crying?
I know it won’t change a thing, no matter how much I beg;
'I could die a happy man I'm sure.'
reminding myself each and every day
I'm yours;
I'm yours.
Kelly at the bottom left, who has always been taking really good care of me
Leslie behind me. you know, Leslie. my Leslie;
Leslie's girlfriend beside her.
Yuwei next to me, you know, Yuwei.
Bo at the right most. Bo, yes Bo;
minus my favourite boy.
hello
only God knows why on Earth you're my first;
Wednesday 3 December 2014
3/12/2014
it was a wonderful Tuesday night.
after a long day of lectures and classes and shopping with my favourite girls, there's no better way to end a day like this;
cold.
freezing coldness that my hands stop shivering and went numb.
for a moment I couldn't feel my hands. He got me everything I've been craving for.
From Nutella churros to fries to hot chocolate to cotton candies to pork ribs to not-so-good Chinese noodles to a ferris wheel ride in a cold weather like this;
I see nothing in space as promising as the view from a Ferris wheel;
getting past the fear to enjoy the view
小时候总在想会不会有那么一天
每次很幸福的时候都会想起李斯曾经对我说过的话：
“总有一天，总会有那么一天会有那么一个人，你一定要等。”
她说，“会有那么一个人不再让你受委屈，总会有那么一天。”
其实每次想着只可以和李斯在一起生活一年而已会特别难过，
我太喜欢这个新朋友了，
每次想起那个深夜我把心里的话全都向她倾诉，告诉她每个早上醒来想着你们而常常难过地哭着，她就那样坐在我床边轻轻地说着一大堆我早已明白的道理，轻轻地拍着我的头直到我入眠。
每次看着李斯都会觉得很骄傲很幸运，天晓得我有多幸运有个这样的室友，
才华横溢就不说了，温柔体贴幽默大方包容又很帅气，
有好几个人都问过我会不会有那么一瞬间对李斯有好感，没有，和她一起生活特别快乐
我的林皓华
Leslie, Yuwei 和 Kelly
还有早被我发了姐妹卡也给我回发兄弟卡的 Bo.
Adlin
好远好远好远的杨奕建和一有机会就讥笑我的杨宏健
每次特别幸福的时候会觉得很惶恐
所以抓紧我不要放手不要放手
在这个狭小的圈子里，有些人要进来，就有一些人不得不离开
我还是那个你们认识的爱穿平底鞋跑步鞋的杨语涵
爬得多高走得多远还是那个只有你们知道我有多平凡的杨语涵
你们知道吗
不管有多么快乐多么幸福
走在街上还是会常常想起你们
after a long day of lectures and classes and shopping with my favourite girls, there's no better way to end a day like this;
cold.
freezing coldness that my hands stop shivering and went numb.
for a moment I couldn't feel my hands. He got me everything I've been craving for.
From Nutella churros to fries to hot chocolate to cotton candies to pork ribs to not-so-good Chinese noodles to a ferris wheel ride in a cold weather like this;
I see nothing in space as promising as the view from a Ferris wheel;
getting past the fear to enjoy the view
小时候总在想会不会有那么一天
每次很幸福的时候都会想起李斯曾经对我说过的话：
“总有一天，总会有那么一天会有那么一个人，你一定要等。”
她说，“会有那么一个人不再让你受委屈，总会有那么一天。”
其实每次想着只可以和李斯在一起生活一年而已会特别难过，
我太喜欢这个新朋友了，
每次想起那个深夜我把心里的话全都向她倾诉，告诉她每个早上醒来想着你们而常常难过地哭着，她就那样坐在我床边轻轻地说着一大堆我早已明白的道理，轻轻地拍着我的头直到我入眠。
每次看着李斯都会觉得很骄傲很幸运，天晓得我有多幸运有个这样的室友，
才华横溢就不说了，温柔体贴幽默大方包容又很帅气，
有好几个人都问过我会不会有那么一瞬间对李斯有好感，没有，和她一起生活特别快乐
我的林皓华
Leslie, Yuwei 和 Kelly
还有早被我发了姐妹卡也给我回发兄弟卡的 Bo.
Adlin
好远好远好远的杨奕建和一有机会就讥笑我的杨宏健
每次特别幸福的时候会觉得很惶恐
所以抓紧我不要放手不要放手
在这个狭小的圈子里，有些人要进来，就有一些人不得不离开
我还是那个你们认识的爱穿平底鞋跑步鞋的杨语涵
爬得多高走得多远还是那个只有你们知道我有多平凡的杨语涵
你们知道吗
不管有多么快乐多么幸福
走在街上还是会常常想起你们
Monday 1 December 2014
1/12/2014
有些路现在不走会被遗忘
回伦敦的路途3个小时左右，懒得抽出笔记温习，戴上耳机循环播放着最近爱听的那几首歌，之前订下靠窗的位子所以沿途风景很漂亮，光秃秃的树林还是别有一番感觉；
thank you shan zhi (:
it's December already.
you know
I wish I could turn back time
sometimes I don't get myself either
.
You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.
This is why I am afraid;
You say that you love me too.
致我为了赶巴士而头也不回跑掉的男朋友：
I'm glad from the first time we had a proper conversation together, you've already found out that I'm a deeply insecure person. I'm still afraid, you know, for some reasons. It's indescribable and too complicated to tell you about my past in details and for me to understand yours;
我总是在想，如果那天我早1分钟出门，yuwei晚1分钟出门，
我就一定不会认识你
还有
你真的是我的第一个男朋友啦
杨奕建那个王八蛋乱讲的啦
Wednesday 26 November 2014
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